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Sunday, 27 May 2012

Is this the REAL me????


Is this the real me???



Not feeling happy and dying somewhere inside….and what was that, really happened???
It appears like something is ruling over my mind again and again…..and again many several times for not knowing the reason of what had really took over mahhh mind like this???
Hard over to look in my eyes in front of the mirror,, to just  let me answer myself??
But what was that I really don’t know??
And just willing to know that I really wanted to………..
Over the years ,,I’ve been a kind of person who can never sit quite for so long….and even a movie seems to be very odd to me as there  I am suppose to sit quite for some time and let others enjoy//…….but a whole day…and the next day…and even the next one???
Hellllllllooooooooooooooo…………I need myself back…….shouting on my own…I again started wondering……the same world?? Same environment?? Same routine??  But why I’ve not been comfortable for so long time??
This questions are really taking me off, and I am really in the state of pendulum,, hanging every now and then between this  unanswered  quiz going inside me……

With whom should I talk??
Where should I rush??

Is there someone who can really make me understand at this particular situation….I have never felt like this before. So uncomfortable…..so suffocated…as if there’s been a great scarcity of oxygen on this earth…ohhhhhhh GoDDDDDDDD……….!!!!!!!!!..........I need myself back…………?????????
Or else please somebody tell me?? What is it???
:( :( :( :(

Here I’m with all the answers collectively………and I came in the state of being answered of all that stuff…………cozzzzzzzz
Heeeyyyyyyyy……..helllllllloooooo……hurrreeeeyyyyyyy!!
We are here once again together to celebrate this never ending joy…..and they just starred me for the worst reaction I gave them back……my emotions,, frustration,, & all those suffocation and questions bursted out in tears all rolling over from my big…big eyes… to my cheeks and then vanishing somewhere being dropped at mhh clothes…….
Their reaction::
Heeeeeeyyyyyyyy……what happened??.....is everything all right??
They hugged me together…..as if I was their cute lil kid :D
And here m back once again consoling myself in there  arms….and a feeling comfort…..i just realized what I’ve had at the moment……MY FRIENDS………..MY LIFE………The reason behind my smile…..and yeah of never ending joy…..that I was suppose to celebrate with them….. :) :) :)

I’m all right now………!!!!

But what happened??

My reply::
May be I was missing you all……..facing the worst face of my life…..but you all made me up again…..and given me the courage to stand strongly….while dealing all that…and they hugged me again…..
Saying……..we are always with you….no matter in every situations…..just feel relaxed…and you will see….all your sorrows will vanish in a moment…..coz we are here together…….  :) :) :)

And here I’m back again…….with the same myself…..and a feeling of having myself back again………a complete me………!!!!!!!

Love you my dear ones…..just love you a lot……..!!!!!!!!!

~NOOPUR~

Thursday, 24 May 2012

Ohh Yeah........ I Am!!!!


The moments of  Trouble.... Failure.... Excitement.... Fear.... And heart break stuffs.... I guess Love is something that makes you feel relax!!!
No matter how danger & strong the problem is...when you don't even know that whether you'll come out of it?????....... Love gives you the strength to stand bravely and to face the critical situations.Keeping apart what the world will say,, Love is a shed that guards you in seasons of life...!!!
I feel happy being with you each and every moment,, Even at times in crowd... i feel joy when your rhythm beats in my heart. At times of cloudy days it's quite awesome to listen you in the silence of nature... And no other emotion can replace this when I enjoy at the time it rains......... :)  
The sleepless nights of insecurity and frustration and at moments when i don't find anyone with whom i can actually share..... Incidents when I really feel a need of someone so that I can just say... However and whatever I faced...!!!   Often when i cry for no reason when I start speaking endlessly & sometimes when I"m hurt........When it goes on and on like a thunder in my heart.... An appearance like a stone is dropped in a river and a birth of numerous waves of questions;; asking myself for what I'm here in this world??  Its great when I listen you again, again and again countless times. It is really not possible to sleep at nights till those songs reach up-to my ears. And it hurt sometimes when people say........ Love with M.U.S.I.C.???    
                           Ohh Yeah........ I Am!!!!  
At days when I feel that world is making me fool & i don't wish to have faith on anyone!! A realization that my trust is broken and accepting that they are not mine...for whom i cared and believed blindly...  
Its like blessing of GOD... by worshiping those seven notations I find a satisfaction in my "SOUL" and I can proudly write......
                                                                                                      MUSIC, The soul of my life...!!!  And yeah..... I'm in love with Music..!!! :)
 
~NOOPUR~

Friday, 18 May 2012

/// मेरा मन ///

सोच रही हू बह जा एक झरने की तरह,या फिर इस मे ठहर जा??
क्या कोई रास्ता है इससे निकल जाने का,,और ख़ुद मे एक बदलाव लाने का??
एक पल सोच भी लू अगर तो क्या अंतर पड़ता है??
क्या बदला है कल और आज मे. . .??
जिन पर विश्वास किया था चेहरों के अलावा और कुछ भी नहीं!!!! 

कभी ख़ुद मे महसूस किया था,,और कभी ख़ुद ही का सामना करना पड़ा था///
फिर भी साथ दिया हमेशा,,
ये सोच कर की मेरे अपने है..........

पर क्या सच मे फर्क पड़ता है किसी को,, 
या जरूरत के हिसाब से रिश्ते भी बदल जाया करते हैं??

मुझे पता है यालो का, सवालों का कोई जवाब नहीं जो बेवक्त ही मेरे में चले आते है...
पर क्यूं हर बार ही मुझे स्थिर सा कर जाते है!!

क्या हक़ है मुझे ख़ुद पर सवाल उठाने का और नुकसान पहुंचाने का......

क्योंकि मेने तो कभी ख़ुद  का साथ दिया ही नहीं था...
मे तो जाने अनजाने उन ही का साथ दिया करती थी,,मूर्ख हू मैं जो उन्हें अपना कहा करती थी!!




क्या दिखाई नहीं  देता,या फिर इनसान मोह में इतना अंधा हो जाता है!! 
माना मैं नहीं देख पाईं,, नकली चेहरे लेकिन क्या भगवान ने भी नहीं देखा होगा??

कमी ख़ुद मे हो तो कोई क्या कर सकता है??
कोई तो कोई जले पर नमक ही लगा सकता  है!! 

कई बार मेरा दिल करता है की कह जा सब कुछ....

मैंने सुना है अक्सर की वक्त के साथ हर घाव भर जाते है...
पर कोई क्यों नहीं कहता की वक्त के साथ घाव गहरे भी हो जाया करते है!! 
कभी लगता है एक पूर्ण विराम लगा दु,,
ख़ुद पर///
पर तब तक कोई कोई फिर अपना बन के चला आता है...

वही नकाब..

वही दर्द...

बस बदल जाति है सूरत,,और मेरे को दुख देने के तरीके...
न जाने कब समझ पागी में, दुनिया की रीत को,,
जहाँ मतलब के अलावा और कुछ जरूरी  नही हुआ करता///
क्योंकि बिना किसी कारण,,कोई किसी को अपना नहीं कहा करता..........///

~नूपुर~

Wednesday, 16 May 2012

From my creatity zone.... Snaped it on Diwali 2011


Was getting bored @ home and thought to have a look @ some old pics again.... And I found this beautiful snaps in my folder and thought to post it on my blog.......


On Roop Choudas….



A free hand touch….
  A Decoration with floating candles at Diwali Eve...  
On Dhanteras….
Beautiful scenario of a village in rangoli……
A bucket of beautiful flowers…
A girl in “DOLI”……..